And so life moves on.

As of now, I managed to win an ebay item. And I'm actually really happy about it.
Its a messenger bag, originally given out if you pre-ordered Mirror's Edge, and getting rare on ebay. There were only three on the page and two of them pushing 40$.

I managed to get mine for 37$
So I'm happy.

(and a geek, yes I know this)

In other news...college is college, just as high school was high school. But without so much drama. ^^

Oh, I actually cleaned my room as well. Which means it became so bad I actually got annoyed enough to clean it.

Also, I've actually not drawn anything on my tablet since...well, before I got a job. SO the lack of art is because of that. I haven't forgotten to draw stuff or anything, but life tends to get in one's way from time to time.

I'm sorry Please forgive me I'm sorry
I tried to hold out but I'm sorry. It isn't my house.
Its not my rules. I love you and it hurts. I'm sorry.

I have to hug you as you leave, I won't come home to you again.
You won't wine when I leave, or get the look of utter happiness when I return.
I won't have to hurry home anymore.

I'm sorry I agreed. I signed your death. I'm sorry, your ignorant. You'll think we are taking you to the park and we are not. You'll go into that room and sleep...I'm sorry. I'm not strong enough for this. It's hurting me. I can't I can't breath.

I'm so so sorry. Please forgive me. Please don't look at me with those trusting eyes. I'm a fake, I can't look back at you without crying. You try to comfort me! Me, who isn't the one who won't wake up again. I can't even be in that room with you. God I'm sorry.

You won't be there to scare off the idiots who knock, or run around the house with me...if I hadn't gotten Henry...then then.

Your warm. I feel that. Never again will I feel that again. I'm so sorry for not being able to be there. Face to face, I owe you that but I can't. You wouldn't ask it of me, your just that loving.

Dear God, forgive me. I am not ignorant of what is going to happen. Death is final. I agreed. I killed. This feels so wrong. It is. I'm sorry...please please forgive me. I'll pray for you, I'll dream for you, I'll try to live for you.

Please follow after the others. They are there waiting.

Its over, my childhood, my memories. That house in those woods. You are not young, and neither am I. I'm sorry. Again and again a million times over. With you my heart goes, generous pieces. over twelve years of my life and yours. Its ending. And you don't even know it.

Stop looking at me like that. Be mad, bite me, curse and shout. Hate me. I'm sorry. I love you...and I always will.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
So very sorry.

So, my dad and I went and adopted a new kitty!
I'm happy to have a new cat...and yet I still really miss Andy...so its really bittersweet right now.

...it doesn't help that he is only 8 months old, so he's getting into everything. I'm gonna see how everything goes...I hope he will mellow out as he ages, as the same thing happened to Andy. (although I don't remember but my dad told me)

...I also happen to be overtired, so that isn't helping.

I've yet to name him...he came with the name Trent but I don't know about it yet.

Its not that I don't want him, I love his attitude. He just wants to be petted and purrs nonstop. I guess I should have gotten an older cat, but for now I'll see.

Oh...and Scout, our dog, seems eager to meet him up close...which we are being VERY careful with. As Scout is a large dog...and doesn't realize it. Kinda like a bull in a china shop.

I guess I'm just asking for some input on how to help calm him down, or some reassurance that he will eventually lose some of that boundless energy. -__-

(kimmy, did you have issues with your cats when they were younger? Same for you Alycia, I know Walter is full of energy...btw, Henry is one of the names I'm considering)


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Ok...so, after much thought and much play with the new kitty I have decided to keep him. AND to give him a name.

"The cat" is now officially Henry James Savage.

I've bonded a bit more with him, and I can't let him go....he managed to wiggle his way into my heart.

So Alycia, we are gonna have ta introduce themmmm! Lol!

(I named him Henry in hopes that he would settle down a bit...hopefully he will)

I felt to need to make another journal.

As I need to move on and be the bigger person.

Finals are coming up soon...I have no idea how that happened, they just popped up!

I have stuff I need to get done, a few books to finish and a paper to write...joy.

If you know me in the "real" world then you may have heard this.

Sorry for making you hear it again....

*sigh*

Just have to get it off my chest.


One of my friends of many years decided that I was basically bullying her throughout high school...

...I am now in college....

so....bolt out of the blue for me.

I never talked bad about her....I actually looked UP to her. my god....she was my friend!!

I don't know what to do...I feel kinda numb after everything. Cause I'm not really mad at her nor am I sad...

Bad friends shouldn't be friends. And I shouldn't be saddened by her loss...but I guess I wouldn't be human if I didn't feel anything.

Still, its more sad that she acted so childish in the end. Made my respect for her disappear quickly.

Again, sorry for the rant.